Back on 29th May, i received my last semester result, things were ugly, very ugly.
2 modules, and i didn't managed to clear one. People around me had been asking, "omg then how?", "huh, why you didn't study?", "like that you can't graduate?".
YES. YES. YES.
I. CAN'T. GRADUATE. this year. BUT, i can graduate next year.
I guess, it doesn't matter anymore whether or not i could wear the mortar board with my peers, i gave up the thought of throwing the mortar board with my peers at the school's atrium.
I only knew that, i HAVE TO graduate next year, to prove to my parents i could get a certificate back with my abilities, and not disappoint them anymore.
They understood my situation, and they didn't blamed me for not clearing my module, even so... they encouraged me to do well next time, and told me that it's okay NOT to graduate this August.
Definitely, i'm glad to have them as my family.
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I admit that i wasn't the best student throughout my entire education, but i don't see myself as the lousiest yet.
I scored 201 (surprisingly) back in my PSLE days, and managed to squeeze into Express Stream.
Flunked my entire Secondary school, to the extent, i NEARLY dropped to Normal Academic Stream when i finished my Sec 3's term, but still... i stayed on (thanks to my 2 form teachers) and was barely promoted to Secondary 4 Express, and i dropped my A.Maths during O Levels.
I was GAWD DAMN FUCKING proud that i scored 25 (L1R4) for my O Levels (i knew nuts why i cried so badly, i should be happy), when i scored 40+, almost 50 for my Prelims.
Managed to get into a Engineering+IT course in NYP, when i'm planning to get into Bishan ITE or Simei ITE back then.
But never once i regretted my choice...... You see, I ended up in University anyways....
Life isn't that bad either... right?
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I've heard A LOT of people saying, AND I MEANT TONNES OF PEOPLE, be it (not close)friends and those 三八婆 or whatever.....
They said: Private university USED money to buy certificate, as long as you've the money, YOU CAN GRADUATE with a degree certificate.
And, i had hear this from my friend's mouth back when we're all Year 1 students in SIM (for my case i'm Year 2, cos RMIT exempt all poly students), who's studying in UOL @ SIM, this is definitely not a hearsay.
He said: My lecturer say RMIT students won't do well in the future, UOL students can. You guys did a right choice to enter UOL and not RMIT.
I don't know where this lecturer get the logic from, and i don't think he's fit to even be a LECTURER for goodness sake. People can compare RMIT and UOL, but as a lecturer, i don't think you've the right to do so? no?
What's more, my friend told me this before, and it will clearly inked in my mind for a fucking long time,
"My friends and i studied Accounting or Banking&Finance, and in UOL some more, we definitely could earn more than you, who is just studying Business Management from RMIT"
Again, i don't see why those who study in RMIT have no bright future. My girlfriends (3 of them) study in UOL right now, while the other 2 in local university, but they never once despised me for being in RMIT, so why should YOU/THE LECTURER have the right to say so?
And also, my friends who've graduated from RMIT, are doing good now in their jobs, i don't see why (again) that we've no bright future? Seriously, sometimes people need to STOP living in their own teeny weeny pathetic world like "JC students are forever better than poly/ite students", "ITE = It's the End".
For goodness sake guys....... IF YOU GONNA ENTER SIM/ANY PRIVATE UNIVERSITY, BRACE YOURSELF.....
It's not what everyone who said like, as long as you got money, you can get the certificate. OMG FALSE FALSE FALSE!!!!
(IN MY CASE) I AM doubly hardworking compared to my entire education life, i studied like 3weeks-1month before my paper, when what i did in poly was study 3-4 days in advance. SEE THE GAWD DAMN DIFFERENCE??????
IMO, Private university = fucks you up like how local university did.
Their only difference?
Private university DO NOT HAVE A COLLEGE LIFE, while local university did?
We just go school for 3 hours of lesson and leave school after which, nothing more. That's it.
So yeah.......... don't you ever think that being a private uni student can be a breeze uh.
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I've learned that, being educated GIVES YOU the pay, but having a skill BRINGS YOU FAR.
I'm happy to know my true self NOW, like on how people sees me....... in the society.
I was known to be bubbly, happy, jumpy in the eyes of my employer and i am capable to take up a role which i have never thought i would go.
It's a pity i couldn't accept the job now, because i don't have a degree certificate.
But still.... my supposed-to-be team leader was more than happy to want me join her even though i don't have a certificate, and she actually looked forward to have me on board.
But however, she told me not to accept the job after hearing that i'm going to take an EXTREME pay cut to a diploma certificate student. THAT'S WHY I SAID, with certificate, it GIVES YOU the pay. But having a skill, BRINGS YOU FAR.
Also, going for an interview for less than 10 MINUTES, doesn't mean you're not suitable for the job, or had flunked the interview.
It could meant that... they would call you up 1 month later to offer you the position or they just simply too lazy to have a long interview because there's a lot of candidates outside.
Life, thank you for the precious lesson, maybe i'm not ready to take up the role/job yet, but i will come back stronger next year, and be a much better candidate/ employee.
And i hope, things would turn out better next time, and i will no longer be jobless after my hong kong trip tomorrow!! Hiak hiak.
P.S: I know the entire post is kinda irrelevant and no-link in some way.... i just wanna typed whatever that came in my mind.
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Anyw, short update.
I've done with my cover up, and would like to thank Dwayne Seah from King Kong Tattoo for sucha amazing piece.
You guys may now call my Ah Huey Xiaojie (LOL PLEASE, I'M JUST JOKING)
Session #1, outline on my previous tattoo.
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| Credit to Dwayne Seah. |
Session #2, colouring of the 3 roses and yellow ink on the leaves on my shoulder.
Supposed to have some background shadow on the final piece, but decided not to, because....
1) Dwayne was afraid it will be OVER colourful, machiam rainbow
2) Dwayne GUARANTEE i will go back to him in 1-2years time to extend my current one to full half back
3) I'm not confident enough that i will stop here, and i MIGHT just extend anytime in future... perhaps.
That's why!!!
Artist: Dwayne Seah
Mobile: 90113353
Http://instagram.com/dwayneseah
King Kong Tattoo
Burlington Square
175 Bencoolen Street
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Till then.......
YJessica, X
